the goddess notebook

the path of healing

For the past few years I have been on a journey of exploration, spirituality and enlightenment.  One thing that is clear to me, is that there is no "arrived" point as I had once assumed but instead, an unfolding of layers of knowing, healing and truth that is continually revealed when we are ready for each new "remembering" of who we really are.

And a funny thing has happened along the way.

In the midst of healing old beliefs, old paradigms and old wounds something rather ironic occurred.  Yesterday, I got a call from my doctor about a very suspect result that is showing all the medical indicators of precancerous cells and the flurry of invasive tests, treatment and the prevention full-court-press action that is now suggested. 

How interesting.

One might think that all this healing work would have prevented such an occurrence but it would seem, I have manifested the opposite.

I remain in curiosity about all this and here is the part I am celebrating.

I feel remarkably calm.  Remarkably centred and remarkably sure that I will be writing another note about my remarkable healing very, very soon.

I just thought I would share my peaceful moment.
Beth

my summer reading book recommendation

Summer is coming.  We know this because all the "get your body bikini ready" articles are plastered on every magazine.  Around this time of year I start looking for lighter reading.  Summer reading.  Nothing that can necessarily help me but just is a good story to find a beach and read it at.  I thought my summer book would be kind of Maeve Binchy-ish. I definitely thought it would be fiction but I was wrong. 

My summer reading recommendation is Eat, Pray, Love by Elisabeth Gilbert.  This funny, raw, poignant, moving true story is for any woman who has ever experienced regret, depression, divorce, shame, loss or has longed to find inner peace with the added bonus of having a divine experience along the way.  I love, love, love this book and frankly, was sad when I finished it however I am left with its lingering inspiration for deepening my own spirituality and writing.

Go get it.

Then tell me how much you loved it (or even if you don't but I cannot imagine it)

maya angelou

A woman

in harmony

with her spirit

is like

a river flowing.

She goes

where she will

without pretense

and arrives

at her destination,

prepared

to be herself

and

only

herself.

Maya Angelou

BE happy

I have wanted many things but it always comes down to one - BEing happy.  That's all.  Everything else is gravy.  Desired gravy (who wants plain mashed potatoes right?) but gravy none the less.  And in my quest to BE happy, I found the way of the briefcase goddess. You might have heard of the way of the peaceful warrior, well this way, the briefcase goddess way, is just for women.  Men can forge a different path, and frankly, they like the challenge.  We women, we like things easier.  At least I do.

I am have found that becoming a briefcase goddess is an evolving process.  At times it feels effortless and simple.  So simple sometimes that my ego mind perks up and says "this is too easy, get back to work!" to which I know just what to do.  I pat my ego on the head like you would a child who does not know better and put it back to bed.  Because I am not a child. I know better.  Easy is good.  Easy is effective.  And easy is the path of least resistance. 

But sometimes I do resist.  I notice I am resisting the very things I set out to create. I do not like it when this happens but soon I get excited because I know just what to do.  Stop DOing.  Pause.  Notice my resistance.  And then I lower it.  I know that when I am clear about what I want and not getting it, it is like stepping on the gas with the emergency brake on.  It is exhausting.  And no fun. And as my favorite motto goes:"if it isn't fun, what's the point?"

DO less. BE more. 

Like happy. :)

getting unstuck

We all quest for things, people and meaningful ways to evolve so life in fact becomes, easy.  However so often, our intellectual understanding of the law of attraction, energy work or spirituality falls short of us always putting them effectively and consistency into practice each day.  I am on a quest for tools that help me get unstuck in those moments (like take Tuesday for example) where I found myself reduced by external circumstances and despite cognitively knowing I could choose differently, I struggled and became of puddle of tears.

But today the sun is shining, my tears have dried up and I am motivated to find solutions because chances are if I have days when I am a puddle, there is likely a goddess or two out there who have too.  What I desire is a plan for just such days and as I unearth what works for me, I will gleefully post my results. 

Stay tuned...